sometimes i find that i am living my life by the expectations of others-those that want me to be someone that they want me to be. Am i incapable of living for myself? Am i incapable of living my life for God? or am i doomed to live life catering to the expectations and realities of those that i choose to surround myself with?
1 Kings 2:2, "be strong and show yourself a man." What is Strength?
strength ( P ) Pronunciation Key (strngkth, strngth, strnth)n.
The state, property, or quality of being strong.
The power to resist attack; impregnability.
The power to resist strain or stress; durability.
The ability to maintain a moral or intellectual position firmly.
holding the moral high-ground is the battle of a lifetime, meaning that it lasts a lifetime. Americans typically do not understand a long war-everything that we have been involved in has been fairly short. Take for example one of the most famous European wars-The Hundred Years war. It is summed up in its title. due to the lifespan of the average European at the time, this war lasted several GENERATIONS. not years, lifetimes. The same goes for the battle between good and evil. it has been going on for Several Milenia. Thousands of years. it takes intestinal fortitude of which no human is capable-what is our solution then. We are up against an enemy that out numbers us, out guns us, and is a great tactician. It is the battle of David and Goliath on a Cosmic perspective. Without help, we are doomed-resistance is futile. BUT, we do have help. We have each other, we have the word of God, we have Salvation, Victory is ours. One thing that is still a "thorn in the flesh" for me is having authority over me. why can i not be the one in charge? Why do I have to do what someone else tells me? Especially if that someone is not physically present. How can i accept leadership over me? Does anyone have any advise-any strategies of acceptance?
Sunday, August 21, 2005
"Away From The Sun"
It's down to this I've got to make this life make sense Can anyone tell what I've done I miss the life I miss the colours of the world Can anyone tell where I am 'Cause now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines into the darkest place I'm so far down, away from the sun again Away from the sun again I'm over this I'm tired of living in the dark Can anyone see me down here The feeling's gone There's nothing left to lift me up Back into the world I knowAnd now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines into the darkest place I'm so far down, away from the sun That shines to light the way for me To find my way back into the arms That care about the ones like me I'm so far down, away from the sun again It's down to this I've got to make this life make sense And now I can't tell what I've done And now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines to light the way for me'Cause now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines into the darkest place I'm so far down, away from the sun That shines to light the way for meTo find my way back into the arms That care about the ones like me I'm so far down, away from the sun again
"Be Like That"
He spends his nights in California, Watching the stars on the big screen, Then he lies awake and he wonders, Why can’t that be meCause in his life he is filledWith all these good intentionsHe’s left a lot of things He’d rather not mention right nowBut just before he says goodnight, He looks up with a little smile at me,And he says,If I could be like that,I would give anythingJust to live one day, in those shoesIf I could be like that,what would I do,What would I doNow and dreams we runShe spends her days up in the north park,Watching the people as they passAnd all she wants is justA little piece of this dream, Is that too much to askWith a safe home, and a warm bed, On a quiet little streetAll she wants is just that something toHold onto, that’s all she needsYeah!If I could be like that,I would give anythingJust to live one day, in those shoesIf I could be like that, what would I do,What would I doI’m falling into this, dreams,We run awayIf I could be like that,I would give anythingJust to live one day, in those shoesIf I could be like that, what would I do,What would I doIf I could be like that,I would give anythingJust to live one day, in those shoesIf I could be like that, what would I do,What would I doIf I could be like that,I would give anythingJust to live one day, in those shoesIf I could be like that, what would I do,What would I doFalling inI feel I am falling in, to this again.
3 Doors Down
It's down to this I've got to make this life make sense Can anyone tell what I've done I miss the life I miss the colours of the world Can anyone tell where I am 'Cause now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines into the darkest place I'm so far down, away from the sun again Away from the sun again I'm over this I'm tired of living in the dark Can anyone see me down here The feeling's gone There's nothing left to lift me up Back into the world I knowAnd now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines into the darkest place I'm so far down, away from the sun That shines to light the way for me To find my way back into the arms That care about the ones like me I'm so far down, away from the sun again It's down to this I've got to make this life make sense And now I can't tell what I've done And now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines to light the way for me'Cause now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines into the darkest place I'm so far down, away from the sun That shines to light the way for meTo find my way back into the arms That care about the ones like me I'm so far down, away from the sun again
"Be Like That"
He spends his nights in California, Watching the stars on the big screen, Then he lies awake and he wonders, Why can’t that be meCause in his life he is filledWith all these good intentionsHe’s left a lot of things He’d rather not mention right nowBut just before he says goodnight, He looks up with a little smile at me,And he says,If I could be like that,I would give anythingJust to live one day, in those shoesIf I could be like that,what would I do,What would I doNow and dreams we runShe spends her days up in the north park,Watching the people as they passAnd all she wants is justA little piece of this dream, Is that too much to askWith a safe home, and a warm bed, On a quiet little streetAll she wants is just that something toHold onto, that’s all she needsYeah!If I could be like that,I would give anythingJust to live one day, in those shoesIf I could be like that, what would I do,What would I doI’m falling into this, dreams,We run awayIf I could be like that,I would give anythingJust to live one day, in those shoesIf I could be like that, what would I do,What would I doIf I could be like that,I would give anythingJust to live one day, in those shoesIf I could be like that, what would I do,What would I doIf I could be like that,I would give anythingJust to live one day, in those shoesIf I could be like that, what would I do,What would I doFalling inI feel I am falling in, to this again.
3 Doors Down
Saturday, August 06, 2005
the filth on the web...
well, the more and more time i spend on the internet the more and more filth i find. i recently found one of the most disgusting websites in the entire web-www.dictionary.com. it was appauling to see how easy it is for young children to have such free access the to perverse nature of the english language-and that was before i learned that there were definitions to slang words included.
I know i am such a nerd, but, hey, do one thing and do it well...
the betrayal word was actually one that i came accross while doing some research on history-i have a little too much time on my hands if i am continuing school work without credit:).
i actually recieved quite a few emails-none of you are to blame, its the webmasters at dictionary.com...but after i saw the definitions it got me thinking-how often do I betray those around me? how often do they betray me? so i posted the definition and looked for some feedback.
the following post was about stress management, and i would still like some ideas or feedback. i am starting to notice that i have been suppressing some ongoing problems resulting from combat stress, and i have begun a rigorous counselling program. No cause for concern, just wanted some ideas...
Something that is cause for concern recently occurred in California. The family minus recently made their way out to the Golden State for the wedding of the year. Martha Stewart was unable to attend, as she is still under house arrest, but all in all i heard that things went marvelously-The bride was beautiful, the groom was handsome, and the family was well behaved (thank you LAPD riot police for being on-call). From what i understand, a good time was had by all...
The traveling soldier was unable to make the trip with too much going on here in Germany-and my own move just 93 days away. it is nearing crunch time, and i am not sure what to do with myself.
anyways-i just got off of a 24 hour guard shift and have not slept yet. i will post some more later, after ample sleep.
may providence guide and keep you-godspeed.
Andrew
I know i am such a nerd, but, hey, do one thing and do it well...
the betrayal word was actually one that i came accross while doing some research on history-i have a little too much time on my hands if i am continuing school work without credit:).
i actually recieved quite a few emails-none of you are to blame, its the webmasters at dictionary.com...but after i saw the definitions it got me thinking-how often do I betray those around me? how often do they betray me? so i posted the definition and looked for some feedback.
the following post was about stress management, and i would still like some ideas or feedback. i am starting to notice that i have been suppressing some ongoing problems resulting from combat stress, and i have begun a rigorous counselling program. No cause for concern, just wanted some ideas...
Something that is cause for concern recently occurred in California. The family minus recently made their way out to the Golden State for the wedding of the year. Martha Stewart was unable to attend, as she is still under house arrest, but all in all i heard that things went marvelously-The bride was beautiful, the groom was handsome, and the family was well behaved (thank you LAPD riot police for being on-call). From what i understand, a good time was had by all...
The traveling soldier was unable to make the trip with too much going on here in Germany-and my own move just 93 days away. it is nearing crunch time, and i am not sure what to do with myself.
anyways-i just got off of a 24 hour guard shift and have not slept yet. i will post some more later, after ample sleep.
may providence guide and keep you-godspeed.
Andrew
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
stress-
1. A mentally or emotionally disruptive or upsetting condition occurring in response to adverse external influences and capable of affecting physical health, usually characterized by increased heart rate, a rise in blood pressure, muscular tension, irritability, and depression.
2. A stimulus or circumstance causing such a condition.
3. A state of extreme difficulty, pressure, or strain: “He presided over the economy during the period of its greatest stress and danger” (Robert J. Samuelson).
Management-
1. The act, manner, or practice of managing; handling, supervision, or control
anyone have any advice?
1. A mentally or emotionally disruptive or upsetting condition occurring in response to adverse external influences and capable of affecting physical health, usually characterized by increased heart rate, a rise in blood pressure, muscular tension, irritability, and depression.
2. A stimulus or circumstance causing such a condition.
3. A state of extreme difficulty, pressure, or strain: “He presided over the economy during the period of its greatest stress and danger” (Robert J. Samuelson).
Management-
1. The act, manner, or practice of managing; handling, supervision, or control
anyone have any advice?
Monday, August 01, 2005
Trust and betrayal...
be·tray ( P ) (b-tr)tr.v. be·trayed, be·tray·ing, be·trays
1. To give aid or information to an enemy of; commit treason against: betray one's country.
2. To deliver into the hands of an enemy in violation of a trust or allegiance: betrayed Christ to the Romans.
3. To be false or disloyal to: betrayed their cause; betray one's better nature.
4. To divulge in a breach of confidence: betray a secret.
5. To make known unintentionally: Her hollow laugh betrayed her contempt for the idea.
6. To reveal against one's desire or will.
7. To lead astray; deceive.
If you say that you are a persons friend, why is it so hard to keep private matters in confidence? I mean friendship always comes with a certain amount of TRUST. I have friends that have willingly placed their lives on the line for me, and i for them.
who can really be trusted???
Can you? i mean really
Can I?
Something to ponder...
1. To give aid or information to an enemy of; commit treason against: betray one's country.
2. To deliver into the hands of an enemy in violation of a trust or allegiance: betrayed Christ to the Romans.
3. To be false or disloyal to: betrayed their cause; betray one's better nature.
4. To divulge in a breach of confidence: betray a secret.
5. To make known unintentionally: Her hollow laugh betrayed her contempt for the idea.
6. To reveal against one's desire or will.
7. To lead astray; deceive.
If you say that you are a persons friend, why is it so hard to keep private matters in confidence? I mean friendship always comes with a certain amount of TRUST. I have friends that have willingly placed their lives on the line for me, and i for them.
who can really be trusted???
Can you? i mean really
Can I?
Something to ponder...
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