Thursday, February 08, 2007

When good news doesnt arrive...

have you ever had one of those weeks where it seems like the good news will never come? that has been my week...we had a memorial service at the beginning of the week, and i was extremely difficult to try and do such for someone at such a young age. The good die young? all i know is I do not want to attend another funeral in my life. i hurts too much. ive been very quiet lately. nothing to say really. I have lost interest in a lot of activities. I started taking my medication again and started journaling. writing down the stuff that i cant put here. the stuff that scares even me. i miss being home.
sometimes i wish that i never joined the army. it would have saved me a lot of heartache. now i find myself in a position where i would rather volunteer to put myself in those gruesome situations to protect someone else from losing their innosence. I am already messed up, why should someone else suffer, when i already do.


Anonymous said...

Andrew ~ ILY Remember that I need you. I'm reassured that you are the person that gives words of consolation and comfort because the content of those words comes from our Comforter, Jesus Christ not from some random universe. Please seek God that He may comfort you. Remember that "No temptation has overtaken you but such as is common to man; and God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will provide the way of escape also, so that you will be able to endure it. 1 Corthinthians 10:13

ILY I am praying for you. MO

Patricia said...

I think about you often, and too wish you were home. I love you deeply, and you are my best friend, no matter how messed up you are!!! Don't put yourself in harm's way too much, we need you home soon. Hang in there.


Tom said...

Hey buddy,

I love you too. Try to stay happy; we all miss you and want you to come home safe.